Does Your Mother Know You Kiss Girls?

okay havent written for fucking ages! because ive been out there living the life i should be sat at home blogging >.< ive actually been really buisy. so i ahve compiled a list of things i want to talk about and i shall tackle them one by one, this first part is titled:
convo with mum:
on our way to cheltenham (so i could get into town) mum and i had the most amazing conversation in the car! i started talking about how Grant is bi, and she has some really strong view on that kind of thing, its been too long to quote her, but yeah she said some really amazing stuff. i also know that she has kissed a few girls, and i actually suspect that she has had lesiban tendancies, you know how people argue something so well that they sort of have to have had experiance on the subject to know that much. she also talked in quiet a bitter way about it... maybe thats just me interpriting it wrong but yeah... hmmmm.
crackers:
had an awesome time at crackers, was a bit nervous at first and a bit aprihensive about seeing Rob again, i kinda felt the same way about him as i did Todd, i know im romantisising it, but its kind of a window to a culture that facinates and excites me. anyway i was SO happy when he came up and gave me a hug and a kiss. i know its horrific, but i mean i know you guys wont see me in any worse a light as you do already, but i was secretly (well nolonger secretly) happy he didnt hug jess. i know thats terrible, but, but. yeah. its silly but i always think that guys like Jess more. so it was like a guilty win. anyway. then whilst we were dancing Ellen tryed to kiss me. i knew it was coming to be honest the moment she asked wether i was bi or not. jess said i was and to be honest im not sure if id have denied it. but anyway i closed my mouth and imidiatly knew jess wouldnt be happy about that, though i guess in the long run i won :p
then i proceeded to brood over the fact that i couldnt get to Rob through the sea of girls surrounding him, dam them i thought dam them all to an existance without razors, but also one far away from here! but i won anyway, cause Rob began to dance with me and during what i think was a panic at the disco song (before Ghost Busters came on) he kissed me and i didnt close my mouth. so really mission acomplished. win. and then the meeting of Perry, oh he is SUCH a cutie! i actaully *heart* him and i cant wait to see him tomorrow, though im a little afraid of introducing him to all my friends. andyway he owes me, jess and i gave him a show! yeah hahaha the upside of having a jealous friend, she put out *grin* i cant belive some people thought we were going out. oh well. i also cant belive Chris didnt knotice us kissing, he was sat like THAT far away from us!
grant:
breaky up time with Grant. not fun, really nervous and guilty though not because i kissed three other people in one night whilst stil technically going out with him. it was really fun doing it, but yeah. i dont know i figured if he didnt physically repulse me, i wouldnt have done it. i didnt do it with Will. yup, unfortunatly Ellen happens to want to go out with him so i think she has told him what i did, and i dont think he's best pleased...
oh well, to be honest i dont care...
im a horrible person.
dads girlfriend:
whilst dad was in one of his drunken adoring revealing moods he confirmed that he did have a girlfriend called Pam, who he met over the internet, and like s alot. i have no problem with it and i look forward to meeting her.
saturday rape:
i had SUCH an amazing day on saturday it was wonderful! i spent the day with Steve, Joe, Will, Kit and Chris, i felt like such a whore, i was the kind of girl that a few months ago i would have hated if i walked past her in the street. oh it felt good. oh i love them all so much! i dont know, but i feel closer to alot more guys than i do girls right now. this probably has something to witht he fact that because they ahve a penis i am prepeared to give them the time of day, or it could be because they are just more interesting. oh well. anyway chris and Will had to leave early so Joe Kit Steve and i sat in the beers. Joe then proceeded to spen the rest of his time with us, picking me up and dipositing me in the flowerbeds, or playing with me, the same way he plays with Frankie which i took as a great great compliment. the Kit and Joe grabbed my scaf and pinned me down by the neck and grasping both arms and legs tight the three of them then tickled me for atleast half an hour in which i screamed and begged and noone batted an eyelid. which scared me a little, because, three guys (from a distance) looked like they were 'attacking' a girl who was screaming... its like the car alarm thing, a car alarm goes off and noone thinks, oh god someones broken into a car call the police, they think oh what an annoying noise. oh well, it was awesome fun! and Kit was left with me at the end and we talked for ages and he lied to his mum so that he could sit with me untill dad came to make sure i didnt actually get raped.
lazy with chris:
i thought i liked chris, i dont anymore but anyway when i did, i found it distressing that he didnt like me back in that way... but to be honest i didnt put any effort into it what so ever which also scares me because it means i have gotten into a state of mind were i assume people will just start liking me in that way if i like them. thich is just silly.
oh Cabaret is on, yey *grins*
i must listen to the White Stripes soon or i may very well die.
Does Your Mother Know You Kiss Girls?: well yeah she does actually, i told her i kissed girls on thursday.
my exact words were: 'well she was right there and i thought meh why not'
she laughed and agreed.
i *heart* my mother