Bacon.

as the stench of burnt bacon fills my nostrils i wonder when the hurting is going to stop. we had bacon and avocado sandwiches for lunch and i couldn't eat it because the very smell made me sick to my stomach. the last time i had a bacon sandwich was when Kit and I had the house to ourselves. i asked him if i could help him and he said i could cut a tomato to put in his sandwich, i already had and he told me he that he loved me. i think i have resigned myself to the idea that we are not going to get back together and i wonder when that is going to stop making me want to off myself. *laughs*.

i love him so much.
i don't want to be alone tonight.