This Weekend.

*sighs happily*
i thought this weekend was going to suck, how very very wonderfully wrong i was!
Friday night was fantastic and i enjoyed spending some quality time with Jaz and Michelle. i thought that going over to Jazz's was going to be so awkward but it wasn't AT ALL! he is so lovely, we just chatted the whole time about everything and he told me some really intimate things that i am honored to know. they're not particularly deep, nor are they prolific, but they were things that he was a little ashamed of and the fact that he felt he could share them was wonderful. i drew a picture of us two on his wall ^^ he was so nice to me and complimentary and we talked about the period where we both liked each other, and he does the cutest thing where he uses me as a base to compare other girls with. every single girl he talked about was 'well, she's kind of like you but...' which i took as a great compliment. then we got into town early and had drinks with Andy and Steve and that was awesome, i felt so 'grown up'. it's a little like sex really. it's hyped up so much and it's only really good when you realize it's actually not that big a deal. but there was this very cute guy there who recognized my costume and spent about 10 minutes talking to us about his experience of the 80s. and i got hit on by his friend when i went to get the drinks, eh actually said 'have i seen you around here before, because i recognize you' *laughs* his name was Ben. then we got to the party and well... the less said about that the better *sighs* it just wasn't my thing i guess. so Jaz Michelle and I went for some air and ended up having an amazing conversation. it's one thing being able to share something with a best friend, but being in a group of more than two, really feels special, i have no idea why. i feel so much closer to Jaz now and he was texting me today which was lovely. he kept complaining about how we never talk anymore so we have decided to set aside some credit especially for each other. then back to Tahmina's i was so nervous because she had Sarah Barns there and another Sarah, i think Smith. anyway i had nothing to worry about, they were both very lovely and to be honest we fell asleep way to fast for there to be any awkward moments. the next morning the two Sarahs left at eight, EIGHT! so it was just Tahmina and i and i was even more scared about that then i was of sleeping over, what if we didn't know what to say. but we did, it was like seeing Livvie again, it just slotted into place again. i planned to leave quite early I'd rather not give the awkward silences time to develop. but the clock kept on ticking and we just kept on talking, nine, ten, eleven, then i had a shower and really meant to leave but then her mum came downstairs and we sat with us and chatted like a real teenager *laughs* then i stayed for lunch and i gave Tahmina's mum a recipe for a roast dinner and i felt so adult, you know swapping cooking tips *giggles* so it was half two by the time i got out of Tahmina's house and i was full on Pizza. then to Wortikas where i slept and read and things which was good. then to cheltenham for 6 and i forgot they were turning on the lights so there were people EVERYWHERE, not just people but children too! i met Franchesca and she showed me a stall that sold more fake plugs and i know i shouldn't have and i cant really afford it but i bought a new one anyway. then i sat in Starbucks and this very very cute waiter cleared my table and chatted to me for a little while. i sat there for about two hours i think, just watching people through the window, and cute waiter guy came back again and commented on me still being there and we chatted some more about being overworked and feet hurting and the like. then i met with Alec, wonderful lovely Alec. who just so happens t be wonderful and lovely. we went to see Choke (but were so busy talking we forgot it was on and missed the first 10 minutes, oops). Choke was... strange. it had this i don't know, teen movie vulgarity that i didn't like at all, but then it had Chuck's usual monologues over the top and Morticia played the mother which was great. and the twists... the many MANY twists at the end were good. it was actually very very sad, and i hope to watch it better on my own. then back to Alec's HURRAY! thank god eventually i went to his! though i didn't get to see his room because we didn't want to wake his parents. he has a huge dog called George who is deaf and going blind, so he doesn't jump up because he can't see yo and he doesn't brak because he can't hear himself. which i can't help thinking makes him the best dog in the world. then we went to Alec's sort of conservatory and we had mugs of tea and a gas fire thing going and we had sex on a wikka sofa type thing which was interesting. but it was wonderful because it was brilliant, i felt not a jot of guilt, i didn't even wish it was Kit. i was happy that it was Alec. and he was so lovely, it kind of just happened which was nice though we knew it would happen if that makes sense. then after he got out his guitar and sang me loads of songs he really is very good at guitar, and his singing Irish accent is adorable. he's very sexy in a sort of cute way. then it was time he took me home and when i protested he simply picked me up and carried me out, which i thought was impressive, he really is very strong. anyway back to mine i invited him in and we had sex again on my bed *laughs* i've lost my glasses. i had to use the condom i got from Wychwood, because i want to be sensible about this and the fact is, i don't know what i could catch off of him yet. Mel is having safe sex *laughs* yeah, so that was awesome, again no guilt for having him in the same bed that i had Kit in, though i do have a little now. i'm not sure wether it'll hit me that we've actually had sex. it makes it normal now, if that makes any sense, i have now had sex with more than one person. it's very different and i like that, i'll spare you the details but yeah. anyway then we chatted for a bit but he had to go as he has work at eight am. i then downed a bit of baileys which is why this is so badly structured and now i am going to boil myself and egg an then go to sleep. i am very happy. and i like Alec a lot.
a lot a lot. hu-fucking-ray for this wonderful weekend, i can not wait for nest next Friday and going to the pig again or something ^^

i love you Michelle and Jess!

:Edit: and my beautiful Livvie, even though you are persisting to remain half a world away *grins*: