Hi I'm Paula.

watched some of my House today. it really suprised me, at the end of the episode he gets a prostitue i dont know i just found it really interesting i mean just how brave they were to introduce that side of him. she comes to the door (looking sweetly attractive) and says hi im paula and sort of trys to start up some small talk, and then he just says 'i am looking for a distraction, you dont have to talk for that' and then she goes inside and the episode ends.
Nile Gaiman's 'Smoke and Mirrors' is very very good i shall reveal my favourites at a later date, its very cool because he sort of has a small explanation and background for each story. (its an anthology of some of his short stories) tomorrow i am going to buy another of his books, i am getting back into reading.
and yes i am back form austria. mother and father are fighting some more and mother is using me as a way to defie my father. if i do something like wear my gloves around the house or put my music on on the kitchen cd player and dad tells me to take them off or turn it off, mum will tell me to keep them/it on. its sad and pathetic. both of them have admitted to me now (mother was sort of in denial about it) that seperation is highly likely, it should be shocking i mean the cracks are starting to show so very obviously. my dad has given up on it, he has decided that there is nothing he can do i understand what he is feeling (obviously not spersificaly) but i know whats going through his mind, because i have the same attitude some times.
im glad to be back i guess, it was a shock getting back home, i dont know the holiday just disapeared once i got through that door?
i have decided to buy some spray paints, draw up and make some stensils and get into grafiti (is it a double f or double t?) i got the sort of insperation from a video i was sent, its amazing! (though its always been an idea i have loved.)
i'll get the link and put it at the bottom. yes so anyway, i told my father about it and he completly blew his top, i thought he might aprove, but nope i was wrong he started having a go at me about how it was illigal and everything and how it was vandalism and how all 'taggers' should be machine gunned. its not tagging, i agree with him about taggers. anyway, it wont amount to anything, nothing i ever do does but its a nice thought. i am also playing with the idea of designing some snow boards, though i dont snow board myself, some of the ones i saw in austria were amazing and i got some great ideas. i also took some beautiful pictures on holiday, so i shall put them up soon too.
i bought some muchroom earings, which is cool because i never buy earings and they are mushrooms.

i dont know whats going on or how i feel really, i dont want this day to end mainly because i dont want tomorrow to begin.
oh well i dont know.
i guess i'll just do what i want.