Tampons

what a wonderful title! i shall come to that topic later, first i think i have some explaining to do...
i have been acting strangely lately, to tell you the truth i dont know why and i am again going to blame hormones... and well other stuff but that is for me and me only.
okay well i havent updated for ages so i have alot to say and well there is alot going on right now so that also adds to volume.
okay well first comes: D of E omg i cant belive thats tomorrow! oh god im sort of a little worried and im also in denial, i refuse to belive that it is tomorrow, the only thing thats happening tomorrow is monday! it cant be D of E not yet! gahh, the thing is i work my best when i am under stress and on my period and i have both now and this leads on to the delightfull title... i have my period over my d of e grrrrrr could my body have picked a worse time!? i decided i was going to try out tampons but uhg grosssss ew ew ew ew ewewewewewewew! yuck yuck i bottled it no way am i shoving anything up there any time soon! uhg twas horrible and scary and yuck!
anyway, as i was saying because im so stressed and on my period miraculously i have managed to get myself sorted out! and to those who know me and how very disorganised i am they will aprichiate the magnatude of this event! i have actualy on my own sorted myself out and i am proud :D
so thats out of the way...
next: family, i actualy found out i was happy to see my dad home! huge huge huge! he walked in and i thought yey hes home! wtf is up with that, perhapes my dad and i are only people that get on if we dont live together, maybe when i move out we will be the best of friends? another wierd thing in family my little sister: i really dont like her most of the time but today she came into my bedroom and put on that voice where you just know that she is about to ask you for something and she goes 'mel i know youll probaly say no but can i borrow some of your music' and i just though FANTASTIC! and i laughed and gave her MCR and told her to play it as loud as she could.
i came in later to see her dancing around with her little home made cerial box guitar to 'this mirror aint big enough...' on full volume and my brother was having a go at her for playing it too loud ku ku ku and she just yelled at him 'mel let me borrow them so there and anyway im her minion!' and then slammed her door on him uhg she is 7 going on 15 i swear! and i mean where the hell did she learn the word minion!?
ohh ohh and you will never guess who i bumped into on my way out of clarinet....RYAN! woohoo lalalala i was so happy! i was packing up and staring out of the window looking for him actualy and well the other side of the window is mirrored so he walked by and in a jess like fashion just checked in the window/mirror and then saw me inside and sort of recognised me and walked off, but then he shot back obviously realisisng who he half recognised in the window he looked really suprised and he grinned at me and i waved and then rushed out to meet him.
twas sweet we chatted for abit and then i had to go, mmmmmmmmhhhhhhh i was happy for ages after uhg i like him sooooo much so very much la la la lalalala!
so we're meeting monday woohoo XDDDD
uhm im not sure about what the hell is going on with the post below this one, i think it may be livvie's garnny if it is you have a very cool granny liv!
okay well i shall end with an apologie for my behaviour in the last week or so and i hope it gets better....
love you all more than you know
xxx