World of My Own

for a second there okay well to be precise maybe three...HOLY SHIT ITS ONE OCLOCK WHERE THE FUCK DID TWELVE OCLOCK GO!
okay maybe a little more, but just for that moment in time i felt like i was in a world of my own...i wasnt happy but i felt wierdly at peace sort of rested. i have by no means sorted anything out in my life if anything i have made things worse but i feel okay...almost
this is such a wierd feeling...
i dont know i want to stay here forever
there are only a few moods were i have wantewd to stay like it forever:
when i am having a really deep descussion with a friend
when i have laughed myself silly and so hard that my lungs hurt and my sides seeze up
when im in the arms of someone i really really love be it friend or partner
when i am sat at a table with the entirety of my family all chatting a joking i dont have to be saying anything just as long as everyone there is happy
when im walking and the sun is shining but its not too hot...when i just love every thing and everyone livving or dead on this earth, those moments are rare but ive had a few and they are great.
and finaly a moment like this...
everyone in the house is asleep, and i am utterly alone
im not happy but its its own bliss...
bliss on a stick as mother would say