Todd

i talked to todd last night for the first time in ages...and i was amazed to see how much he still terrified me! you see i was so so scared of him when we were going out but i thought that was just because it was like you know 'first boyfriend' thing because i never got that with ryan (well only a little anyway) but i started talking to him again and well, i was terrified and i sort of liked it, i by no means still like him, oh dear god no! but it was still kinda fun...
is being scared that much of a turn on? :$ help!
anyway other news: still pineing after ryan but im not as sad as i was so thats cool, and there is a possibility that he will be at the skills festival tomorrow...that would be amazing!
sort of feeling better been belting out Moulin Rouge thats made me feel better and the fact that CSI is on tonight and i have no homework woohoo, im actualy in a reasonably good mood today! well for the mood i was in today...i actualy burst into tears twice today which is rare and an indication to how bad all of this has fucked with me!
GOD! the sandman books are so confusing no i mean i get the books but i am trying to buy some more and fuck! there are so many spinoffs and subplots and other books i just dont know where to turn! flump! uhg! anyways i cant belive it im not going to get the sixth sandman because mother dear has forgotten to order it! i have given up i am going to read number eight now!...